Ku haus di tengah lautLemas
Ku sunyi dalam gembira
Kau datang ketika duka
Terlalu lama aku mencuba
Kau datang ketika duka
Ku rebah di dada malam
Ya Tuhanku hanya padaMu
~path of bordem~
Lupakan saja cerita kita
Yang mungkin pernah tertanam dalam hati
Memang tak mudah berlari jauh
Meninggalkan manis senyummu
Kau yang pernah singgah di hatiku memberi damai
Namun perbedaaan antara kita memupuskan itu
Kini ku jauh darimu mencoba melawan hasrat yang ada
Sungguh tak terfikir olehku
Tapi kusadar yang ada, hanya bayang semu dirimu..
~ni la sebenarnyer pe yg leeya pkir time break ngan die dulu...hemm...perbezaan...aper yg aku pkir time tu???life dier ngan aku sgt berbeze...dier ngan kwn2 die n care hidup dier...aku mcm ni la...hidup x mcm org lain hidup....bosan...aku ngan diri aku jer...hidup sorg2...tanpe kawan yg ramai...time tu aku akui mmg aku syg giler kat dier....tp x bemaksud aku leh control hidup dier...btl tak???dah dier mmg mcm tu...aku x leh wat per...aku kener hormat care hidup dier...dier der kwn yg ramai.x kire laki or perempuaan..n aku lak sbenarnyer mmg cemburu habis if dier kuar ngan kwn2 pompuan dier...dah la aku blh dikirekan jauh dari dier...tp time tu aku telan jer..x sanggup rasenyer nk ckp ngan dier...n yg paling penting aku trust dier sbb dier bf aku...mmg trust habis sbb aku syg dier sgt...giler la leeya..haha...tp last2 aku wat keputusan tok tgl dier..aku rase ni yg tebaik tok aku ngan dier...biar dier hidup dgn aper yg dier suker..knl org ramai2...yg chumel2 n yg cantik2 lebih dr aku yg x der paper ni...dier deserve yg lebih baik dr aku...tu la yg aku pkir...aku ni gagak di rimbe dier lak merak di kayangan..kan jauh punggung dr api tu..haha..x gitu????bersastera pulak aku ni..emm..lg yg wat aku x puas ati ngan diri sendiri adlh sbb aku x pnh layan dier beik2..knp la leeya oi????kalo dier jmp aku ker...mst la aku wat hal...x lyn dier la...nk blk cepat la..itu la..ini la...aish....hampeh la ko ni leeya...tp skrg ni x sangke lak...keputusan aku tu wat aku hidup ngan penuh penyesalan....knp aku tgl kan dier???mungkin aku patut rase mcm ni..sbb aku x pnh pecaye diri sendiri tok bg sayang aku kat dier...tau aku yg x pernah hargai dier dtg dlm hidup aku????bukan tu aku rase...aku rase sbb aku EGO!!!aku mengaku.....x pnh ckp pe yg aku rase kat dier...even nk ckp aku SAYANG setiap kali nk letak phone pon susah...tp dlm hati...aku dah jerit kuat2 da pekataan SAYANG!!! tu....adoi....baru aku tau..care aku ni sbnrnyer wat aku makan ati..n raser tu sampai sekarang masih terase.....leeya2... :(
AsSalAmmUalAikuM…...
SayE tau
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SaYa tAk NaK KAcAu AwaK dAh. TApi MAcaM manA nGAn SAyE?? SayE RinDu SaNgaT kat Awak. AwaK sEhat Ke? MaCam ManE LiFe? Ok TaK? Nak TepoN Awak PoN saYer TAKUt…YeLA SaYEr TakUt aWAk TAk sukER. So SayEr SiMpaN jEr DaLAM atI. SaYer RiNDu AwaK sEnYAp2. BoLeH
ApE saYe NaK Buat NI aWAk? SayE tAu saYe TaK LayaK Kot NaK DeR kaT SebeLAh aWAk. TaPi KenApe SayEr BodOh SiK PikIrkan AwaK????? LaGi PoN SaYer Tau aWAk daH TAK sayAng SaYer LaGi….Ala..BenCiNye PeraSaaN nI. L
AwaK TaK raSE Ke Pe Yang SaYe Rase? Awak Tak RinDu saYe? AwaK tOlong LA saYe. SaYe taK kuAt. BilE
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GENERAL:
It’s almost your birthday—and you’ve got some preparing to do. For the first three weeks of June, wrap up everything you don’t want to bring into the coming year. The Gemini Sun in your twelfth house of endings helps you leave behind all that you’ve outgrown. Use the first three weeks of June to sort and purge. You may be particularly tired during this time, so manage your energy and get an extra hour or two of sleep at night.
On the 20th, a major power cycle begins. The Sun moves into Cancer that day, which is also the summer solstice. It’s the longest day of the year, so expect a blast of energy and vitality as the Sun spends its longest day in the sky. On the 22nd, the Cancer new moon officially marks your personal new year. This is a particularly golden moment because a month later, a second new moon falls in Cancer.
Normally, we only get one new moon in our sign per year, but in 2009, you’re the exception. The July 22nd moon will also be a solar eclipse, which acts as an energy portal, rocketing you to a new level, perhaps even a sudden new role or lifestyle. Be especially conscious of what you start this month—or, as the saying goes, be careful what you wish for, Cancer. The eclipse will power it forward times ten. Spend quality time writing down what you want for your life, and taking steps toward that now.
LOVE & ROMANCE:
Play it cool, Cancer. This month, sexy Mars and romantic Venus are in Taurus, your free-spirited eleventh house. Love can be a bit of a come-here-now-go-away game, with either you or your partner needing more personal space. Detaching from your emotions isn’t your usual style—you tend to react quickly and crave closeness. Now, a little distance will behoove you. From June 15th-October 12th, expansive Jupiter goes retrograde (backward) in your eighth house of intimacy. During this cycle, old trust issues could resurface, and you’ll be tempted to withdraw into your shell. Deal with jealousy and insecurity by patiently talking it through, rather than going into hiding.
If your partner is the one to act aloof, don’t freak out. Use the space to pursue your own interests and friendships. The eleventh house rules group activity and technology. Single Cancers could find love through your circle of friends, networking events, parties, even online dating. Friends will provide levity and perspective, which you’ll need this summer.
On July 22nd, the Cancer new moon brings deep transformation to your closest relationships. This moon will oppose powerful Pluto, which could churn up buried resentments, unleashing anger you didn’t realize you felt. Though you may be tempted to blame your partner (or an ex) for your unhappiness, don’t. Chances are, you haven’t been crystal-clear about your own wants and needs. How can somebody else provide those unless you know what they are first?
MONEY & CAREER:
You’re coming off a long career-focused cycle, and it’s a relief. Last month, ambitious Mars was in your career sector, putting you in the hot seat at work. Charming Venus was also here since February, forcing you to play the corporate game. Alas, a little sucking up was essential in a season of layoffs and cutbacks.
In June, Mars and Venus circle through Taurus, your eleventh house of technology and teamwork. No matter how well you locked in job security, networking is essential to keep it thriving now. A true leader empowers both herself and others around her, so show that you’re not only a great results producer, but an essential asset to the team. You might volunteer to coordinate an office holiday picnic for July 4th, or even spearhead a charitable project like a beach cleanup or food drive. This will give you a great chance to display (and develop) skills like delegating and management.
On June 15th, communicator Mercury enters Gemini, your karmic twelfth house. What goes around comes around, especially when it’s in writing. The rumor mill is churning, so hold yourself rigorously to a no-gossip policy. Watch those dishy emails, especially if you send them from a corporate account. You don’t want to be caught as the source of a workplace drama. Be proactive: if you sense tension with a coworker or client, get closure fast. Clear your space of any negativity, and finish up projects that have been dragging on.
HEALTH & FITNESS:
On June 7th, the Sagittarius full moon lights up your sixth house of health and fitness. If you’ve been struggling to kick a bad habit, this is the perfect time. Full moons can be energizing, so seize the moment to start a healthy new routine. You may also want to deep clean your house, since your environment is a reflection of how you treat your body. Consider hiring a housecleaning service, even just for one turbo-charged session. Cancer rules the home, and you need yours to be a nurturing haven whenever possible.
Trying to get in shape? One of the biggest obstacles to overcome is your mindset. The full moon will square skeptical Saturn, causing your brain to fire off a litany of reasons why now is not the time. Self-doubt, complaining, rationalizing…it’s all just a dressed-up version of “I can’t”…which is a dressed-up version of “I won’t.” Stubborn little Crab, release your grip. You’re only holding onto unhappiness. If you must, simply pour out your negative beliefs on paper, then burn the pages. Soldier forward and don’t give in to this old script.
Lucky Days: June 14, 23
Money Days: June 12, 25
Love Days: June 4, 9
Off Days: June 2, 21